While i was at SKII today guess who i met? Helen Sampoerna. I never expected her to look like that,her bodys like to heavy for her heels.. I was dreaming when she sat near me at the same time exchanging glances. In her mind she must be wondering if im a he or she again,if im a he,why do i have big chest? Holy crap,this is the thought that i always get from all the indonesian people here and im really getting so sick of this momentum. Okay back to dreaming,yes i was just thinking if she would ever be gay :D and if she is,i would hook her up with a paper bag on then swim in thousands and thousands pack of Sampoerna evry single day,until i die. Live and die as a chimney. But then again,i cant possibly live my life under that paperbag . no no no,i dont want this kind of suga mommy. She really need sessions at Marie's. Enough about Helen. Think of what real now. Ill be back in Singapore during December,ill be graduating on January. Theres really so many things that i have to mark in my agenda.
LISTS:
1.Need to party for real,(cus i havent had a decent one here.)
2.Need to get together with Jimmy,tiffany, if she will be back.
3.Need to find out where can my fashion show be held at.
4.Need to see and find models.
5.Need to find designers.
6.photographers.
7.Need to get together with all and sundries.
8.Need to shop!(so much things i have to buy)
9.Need to drink real starbucks.
10.Need to meet up with a lot of different people.
11.Need to be busy every single day.
12.Need to eat real MacDonalds.
13.Need to walk more(And only walk,im sick of four-wheeled vehicles)
more....
i cant wait till December to come. And hopefully everyones not out of station.
"dont you want to graduate soon?"
"dont you think you should just come down here and consult your client and then do whatever you want later?"
"dont you think its unfair that they only want you?"
i went blank after the convo. Ive lost quite number of customers and i think rota must have hated me. Hell man,i didt know i was so famous and wanted ! :D It all reveals to me when im not there. -very widened grins.
Oh please,this is so boring..im not in school right now,and i really miss school. i wonder what theyre doing today. Im with my sisiter, running some errands . Will be back in school by saturday. That is really long to wait .
Honestly,adapting in a different place from where you grew up in can be done. The proof is,im already adapted to the life in indo now but its just the communication that is still a problem. i cant seem to speak fluent bahasa,im always blabbering. But anyway,i love Surabaya and all those bikers. :D Really hope i could share this joy with meiwen and co. Meiwen,its really fun here. you should come soon!!!! Ill teach you bahasa. -chuckles.
ive been asking my mum to let me learn driving but she never wants me to,and they always change topic when im at it. so i secretly learn bike instead from all my cool bike friends and now im riding bike. its fun but you die faster if youre not focused. my friend just got an accident outside the salon. poor her,her face was partially lightly-skinned. she suffered from a slight brain damage. thank God its all slight. the accident was really stupid,its all happen becus of her stupid jacket that got caught in her back wheel. was sent to the hospital,the craziest thing she could say was:"ahh,shit.there goes my clubbing plan tonight!" hello.. we are all so worried for her becus she was unconscious for almost two hours and yet all she could think of is she and her clubbing habits.
shes back at her hoometown now. healing.
sighs. i feel so alone and cold in this life of mine now,but ill live on with it. :/
Setelah kupahami aku bukan yang terbaik
Yang ada di hatimu
Tak dapat kusangsikan
Ternyata dirinyalah yang mengerti kamu
Bukanlah diriku ..
Kini maafkanlah aku
Bila aku menjadi bisu kepada dirimu
Bukan santunku terbungkam
Hanya hatiku berbatas 'tuk mengerti kamu
Maafkanlah aku..
Walau ku masih mencintaimu
Ku harus meninggalkanmu
Ku harus melupakanmu
Meski hatiku menyayangimu
Nurani membutuhkanmu
Ku harus merelakanmu
Dan hanyalah dirimu
Yang mampu memahamiku
Yang dapat mengerti aku
Ternyata dirinyalah
Yang sanggup menyanjungmu
Yang ramah menyentuhmu
Bukanlah diriku..
this is a song by samsons,
and its dedicated to you from me.
i have been super duper busy that i dont even have time to go online. and when i am,i will only check my mail and then mia again, i cant even breathe.
I will blog really often again when i have the time to relax and finally get to rest my ass on the chair.
Days are really passing so fast and dec is nearing,oh what should i do for my presentation,im still struggling. so many things to worry about and so many places and things i have to go and do.
Will be going to jogjakarta soon. I dont think im going back to singapore anymore,things are enough messy for me,not that im running away but i dont think im needed there and my presence will make situation weird,well it all doesnt matter anymore.Perhaps only this Dec for my show at DXO(maybe?) or somewhere else but of course Singapore. My models are all there.
Tan meiwen i dont know if you will ever read this but dont forget what you promised me,or you already did? I will skin you alive if you ask me what is it.
I miss everyone. And i really miss the days that i used to just slack and smoke and drink coffee with me and the other chimneys. I miss fishing!:)