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12:05 AM ; Monday, May 28, 2007

Ive discovered an insight of my family. i feel so insignificant in this home. Saw how bias my mother was towards my brother. i know she loves him more than me even if the world knows the fact that evry parents love all their children. :( you know,i miss you so much.. i miss those days when you always have to ask me what you should be wearing for every single outing with me,and also those days when we eat ice creams together,eating together at sun and moons and we'll laugh so much while running in the rain. and walk along the sidewalk of wheelock to forum,goofing around with each other. making faces and always racing from an end to another.you always win :) im starting to feel it,all the misery here. jimmy told me that i shouldnt be feeling this way because i chose this path.i know,but i cant help it when i have to choose something and leave someone so dearly behind. its when ill always complain.. My dad never come home for so long. and we both cant talk much,he loves my sister more than me,he's closer to her. what about me?dont
i deserve to be paid attention to? i think the years apart from them have distanced us,they seem to belong to their world and me in mine.. we cant get along well and i dont understand this family. seriously. Doesnt my exsistence matter to them?My days are getting lonelier than i expected it to be.i do have my school friends,but none of them i can be and go out with. you know
everytime im alone and i close my eyes,i see you smiling,pushing me to go forward,keeping the faith between us. i see you growing stronger everyday and so did i. i believe we have loved each other before.Every single day i love you more. you have made my life different.I wish i could go back to singapore soon,not exactly that im not happy here but i hate having to miss someone badly,its not good for my health.Its painful .

sweetheart,i dont want us to ever quarrel cus i dont believe that itll make our relationship stronger.

9:16 PM ; Sunday, May 13, 2007
im back

Finally im back to blog again,I need to rant it out before I go mad.

I cant stand the fact that im able to stay here so peacefully without complaints to parents.

Well,im going to start,I hate this place,really. Life is so horrible here. I have nowhere to go and no body I cant go out with. Not a single soul..my mum have her friends,my brother have his and my sis is away to Jakarta for good. But i heard that she cant take it there and is gonna come back here in a month later,i bet she cant bear with her job. She says its unhealthy there becus there is no veges and fruits and also no Tahu,her favourite fried beancurd. Cant stand her. Anyway,back to my topic of my abhorrence towards Surabaya. Omg,I cant stand the currencies here. My daily pocket money is like only two bucks here! Which is 10000. But here,its counted a lot for a student like me whos lunch is only less than 5000. sigh,. The only thing that I really like and enjoy doing it is my school work.its really fun. Though I don’t have homework but I got lots of things to memorise. Like the way a air is cut, the position and how many parts. Not that hard . when it will come to coloring, I think ill die. Imagine having to memorise the color number.. for e.g like blonde brown is 12.3 and light brown is 11.4 and dark brown is 14.3..you know..its something like that..ALL shades of a color have different numbers,tell me how can I live like that. DO you have any ideas HOW MANY COLORS OF DYE they have in a SALON?and i have to know ALL the SHADES of every SINGLE COLOR’s number. God!

So far i have learnt how to cut,blow dry,straightening,cream bath,curling,and the different parts of hair I have to divide on a FEMALE dolls hair. Well,somehow I feel so much happier to be in my school than home. People in school joke around and they all love me!

-winks. Over there,the owners daughter is the teacher at the academy section and guess how old is she?younger than me! All the students hair there are cut by Tari(owners daughter) and dyed by her. Her own choice of hairstyle and hair color..they have no say,its pitiful but its really cool. All their hairstyle are really nice. Some short,some long,some half2 and some have pink strips..all kind. Happens to be when I first came into the school,Tari wasn’t in Surabaya.. she left for japan with her whole family,she’ll only be back aftyer next week and they told me to be careful cus my hair will be fixed by her.. Currently my hairs black. And its thinner and shorter cus my teacher(Tari’s assistant) cut my hair the other day.. I don’t know when Tari is back,what will become of my hair. J im excited though.ahahaha! oh,anw, I was saying that everyone there loves me..right?they do! Cus im the youngest student there and im handsome.-wide grins. Ohh,let me be obsessed with myself for awhile. My school Rota academy.(it sounds weird but ya its my school.So don’t laugh at it!)contains of three storey,first is their salon and second level is their make up academy and also their beautician area and third floor is where me and the others are learning their hairdressing.heee heee. Well,in fact the whol Rota girls thinks that im a guy and they say that im sooo handsome.-covermouth,laughing. Ohs,and they call me the prince of Rota.-giggles. The people at the first level is alwas embarrassing me,theyre alwas teasing me with some other girls. Well of course they know that im a girl but its just funny how they like to tease me and how they alwas keep telling each other that if I wer a guy I would be so hot.. THEY say HOT!!! HAHAHAH! Im not mad here but my heads gonna burst soon. I loooove praises!-open mouth grins.you know,my academy..there is no guy at all..All are girls. So,can you imagine hows my life there?living in tease and they love to play around with my hair,straightening it,curling it..all my seniors will alwas say that whatever hairstyle that I have I still look so !ganteng! from the front back side..-laughs very loud. Baby,of course you know I will never be unfaithful.. so don’t think the other way. okay?:) youll have my forever-free-hairdo card from me.:) hehe,I haven’t been blogging and I don’t want to divide my stories into different days so im saying it all today! You guys know how I am,when I finally blog again,the whole chunk of stories will be told in an entry :)

-wide grins. I love to be loved,so now you know why I love school more than home?

At home my family is alwas busy with their own lives,even my dog,so I get busy with my own life being miserable. *yawns* im feeling rather sleepy. goodnight! I miss you all so much. How I regret saying MoS was boring.. HERE don’t even have a decent club and I want to think about MoS indo version?Phuuiii.

I miss you so much.-stretch hands. Come! Hug me!-cries