okay, this time its almost the same thing again. im starting to get sick of facing all these nonsense that my family is having. my brother is the most irritating guy anyone could ever known. he is so lazy that i wish i could burn him alive. his actions are burning my ass to the bone,i dont know how my mum can stand loving such kid. he;s so childish and selfish.. all he cares is only he and his car. only know how to modify and modify. he's so irrespondsible. he never speak nicely towards his family,or perhaps to anyone that he know. this is so annoying,especially when mum alwas ask him to do things or seek his help to do someth,he'll always :"apa sih?!!"(in indo) meaning "what??!!" he is the most ungrateful creature that have ever inhabited on this planet. he is freaking a-n-n-o-y-i-n-g me. mums health is not getting any better and she always have to use her high screaming voice to talk to him. and i hate that. hate to hear it and hate the fact that its worsening her health. and today i ask him to take me to dads place becus he feels so lonely and he wants some concern from his family,he doesnt want to take me there. he choose his friends instead,i wouldnt need him to drive me if i knew how to myself. he doesnt know how to draw the line between whats important and whats not,or who is and who is not. he keeps having this thinking in his mind that he'll never go poor. he'll always have my father to support and that he only must enjoy now. i wish i can swear so much now but i forgot how to already, ive never used those words for quite sometime. i just had a fight with him and we are both not talking,he is already eighteen! why cant he be independent like how i am when im 16 in singapore?? indo kids are just so spoilt. or maybe..its how you want to choose yourself to be.
god,when will i have the chance to dependent on someone? in singapore,i have only myself to fall on.here,likewise. i want to grow up and pursue my future faster.
i dont want to see my parents suffering under the mental tormentation that their only son,my brother, is giving them.
i wish he is like me.