Ive discovered an insight of my family. i feel so insignificant in this home. Saw how bias my mother was towards my brother. i know she loves him more than me even if the world knows the fact that evry parents love all their children. :( you know,i miss you so much.. i miss those days when you always have to ask me what you should be wearing for every single outing with me,and also those days when we eat ice creams together,eating together at sun and moons and we'll laugh so much while running in the rain. and walk along the sidewalk of wheelock to forum,goofing around with each other. making faces and always racing from an end to another.you always win :) im starting to feel it,all the misery here. jimmy told me that i shouldnt be feeling this way because i chose this path.i know,but i cant help it when i have to choose something and leave someone so dearly behind. its when ill always complain.. My dad never come home for so long. and we both cant talk much,he loves my sister more than me,he's closer to her. what about me?dont
i deserve to be paid attention to? i think the years apart from them have distanced us,they seem to belong to their world and me in mine.. we cant get along well and i dont understand this family. seriously. Doesnt my exsistence matter to them?My days are getting lonelier than i expected it to be.i do have my school friends,but none of them i can be and go out with. you know
everytime im alone and i close my eyes,i see you smiling,pushing me to go forward,keeping the faith between us. i see you growing stronger everyday and so did i. i believe we have loved each other before.Every single day i love you more. you have made my life different.I wish i could go back to singapore soon,not exactly that im not happy here but i hate having to miss someone badly,its not good for my health.Its painful .
sweetheart,i dont want us to ever quarrel cus i dont believe that itll make our relationship stronger.