before you read this entry,there are things i need t say,please do not read this halfway and do not feel like youre straining your eyes t read this.
this is something which i would and will alwas love t share it all (especially t you).
The entry will be long,please do not turn away before finish reading them,God bless.
Science and its marvels scan the heavens and give us access to the terrifying stretches
of space and time.
We can now look across the endless beyond,the velvety dark sky
glittering with gleam of uncountable galaxies.
Our world survives in the midst
swirling infinities.
We peer into the expanse above us and the sight swamps our
minds and overwhelms our spirit.
Amid the wheeling galactic systems,the countless worlds like dust cloud and the
whole engulfing vortex, do we have any significance?
In this infinity can the weak voices of our proclamation of the cross register anything?
What use is our gospel message against the vastness of such cosmic activity?
There is only one true answer :"These are the things of God." He is their
explanation,full and adequate.
Creation is the signature of the Almighty.
He formed and cast all visible things for Himself.
He hammered them out on His anvil to fit Himself.
We are finitely little these infinite splendors but God the creator is too great for anything less.
The glory of the heavens is only a pale reflection of his glory.
The burning nebulace are jewels that fell from His garments and scattered as he passed by.
The Milky Way is a ring for His little finger.
"By his breath the skies became fair and these are but the outer fringe of his works," says Job(26:13)
God created all things and told us why; He did not leave us guessing.
His word is greater than Creation.
He has left us here in His world with His word and for His word,creatures of understanding amid mindless dust cloud of swirling stars.
Creation relates only to the creator.
Nothing exists for itself;no one exists in isolation from others-except rebellious sinners,who then lose their only validity,which is God.
We are not our own meaning and without God we are irrelevant.
Without God our world,its commerce,its industrious activities,its governments and institutions become vanity and vexation of spirit,as motiveless as the wind that blows from south to north and back again.
The heavens declare God's glory and his word articulates it.
That is the word we preach,the good news we share.
There cannot be any other word;only one word can be true,just as existence can have only one reason and only one meaning.
The unchangeable truth is that if the world does not relate to the gospel,it relates to nothing.
If the world have nothing to do with the church of Jesus Christ,it is nothing and going nowhere.
The gospel explains it all and nothing else does.
Disown the gospel and darkness falls.
No other voice tells us what the world is for;no other light illuminates the mystery of our own presence on earth.
Our message is far more than forgiveness and heaven. Our calling is to put a kind of hand on the shoulder of the world and turn it round to see God.
It will adore Him.
The Lord is the savior.
He is not there for us;we live for Him.
He saves us for Himself,for His own glory.
Our preaching does not end in people but in God.
He takes delight in what He does for us.
He loves because to love gives Him joy.
He loves beyond all the parameters of human affection and makes even the assault of the cross an expression of his love.
His pain asserts it.
He finds satisfaction in giving,pouring Himself out to us,surrounding us with wonders,making His redeemed the garden of delight in which He walks.
To proclaim the gospel is to move for Him,act with Him,love in Him,and delight in His joy as the privilege,meaning and purpose of all life.
God is the God of salvation.
That is the ABC and the XYZ of our knowledge.
Christianity is not a religion,its being in a relationship with God.
Love of mine,
Someday you will die,
But I'll be close behind,
And follow you into the dark.
The blinding light,
Where tunnels to gates of white,
Just our hands clasped so tight,
Waiting for the hint of the spark.
If heaven and hell decide,
That they both are satisfied,
Illuminate the No's On their vacancy signs,
If there's noone beside you as your soul embarks,
I'll follow you into the dark.
Catholic school,
As vicious as roman rule,
I got my knuckles bruised,
By a lady in black.
And I held my tongue,
As she told me,son,
Fear is the heart of love,
So I never went back.
If heaven and hell decide,
That they both are satisfied,
Illuminate the No's On their vacancy signs,
If there's noone beside you as your soul embarks,
I'll follow you into the dark.
You and me,
Have seen everything to see,
From Bangcok to Calgory,
And the Soles of your shoes,
Are all worn down,
The time for sleep is now,
It's nothing to cry about,
Cus we'll hold eachother soon,
In the blackest of moons.
If heaven and hell decide,
That they both are satisfied,
Illuminate the No's On their vacancy signs,
If there's noone beside you as your soul embarks,
I'll follow you into the dark.
I'll follow you into the dark.
Deathcab for cutie
im in te art class again right now.sigh,i missed her alot,my baby i mean.i havent seen her in exactly four days today.have alwas been busy with my school work.
anws,im in te mid process doing my final painting,its so beautiful.its green period.its harder to explain it here but if you were t see it,questions will be cleared.been staying till late in school.went home at 6 yesterday.
maths lesson drove me crazy,just why on earth would anyone want to invent te stupid algebra or infact mathematics??:(
i hate maths.no matter how much i absorb,if i dont have interest in it,whats te point?i wont be able to learn..
i need help.my study life is deteriorating.im going to get an A1 for art. :)im confident.
here,i found something very insane and only people with good,brilliant,high IQ will able to understand it.First let me tell you,this is irritating ,if youre feeling rather irritable,id rather you save your computer or hair by not reading this. :)
"what" is not to understand and "what" is to understand or not is not to understand that even when "what" is understood,it is not understood,for "what" is to understand and "what" is not to understand,"what" is "what" and "is not" is "is not",and so is not to understand not wanting to understand or simply not understanding why "what" needs to be understood or whether "what" can be understood,and also it is not understood whether "what" is really not understood or wheter it simplyhasnt been rendered so hat it can be understood,or is really understood but there is a pretence not to understand or a refusal to try to understand,or is pretending to want to understand yet deliberately not understanding or actually trying unsuccessfully to understand,then so what if its not understood and if its not understood,then why go to all this trouble of wanting to understand it--
im ahving this really good steamboat at my church friends house,Rica(house owner,Floren,Fanny,Sylvia,a new friend made that just came from china,namely Senobia,and anther one graduated from melbourne,adrian).a warm indonesian gathering :D Ricas house is soo huge,and she live alone.i cant imagine myself living in sucha huugeee house alone,first ill feel so lonely,second ill feel so unwanted,unloved,then ill be so paranoid of evrything thats moving by itself,(i meant te moving curtains by te air con.) but then again,its bad for me cus ill hold an everyday party. anws,we ate sooo much im bloating now,so much MsG,ate so many fishballs,prawnballs,crabsticks,beehoon. I'll have hairloss problem tomorrow im sure.sigh,this coming monday is my chinese listening exam.i dont want t fail my chinese olevel exam you know?:(
its late and im still at her house right now.enjoying,having te so called last enjoyment before tormentation day.okay,im done with blogging for today. goodnight!
yesterday winda was brilliant.she screwed her CHINESE oral and use english t communicate with te two invigilators,question was given,they both look at me and we stare at each other blankly for a minute then,i was trying t figure out how t solve te bloody question he asked me about,so i broke te monotony and start t blabber some crazy answers that obviously is out of te question,they both gave me te garfield look.you know,half eyed look.i know how t explain ,but in english,ho wi wish for that moment im given a privillege t get a translator,i wouldve scored!No nods and smile.SO,i just kept quiet again,they finally said:"hai you xiang bu chong de bu fen ma?(can i do any better?) i thought for awhile that thats te end of my chinese,f9 again.i said with a heavy heart,no,nothing else. argh!!! how could i?? :((
if only english oral doesnt have t picture descript.i couldve scored better.
hallelujah. my ass is saved! mr tan says i should take all te masterpieces from picasso,lucian freud,david hockney,vincent van gogh and combine them tgth with no themes. great,isnt work easier without a theme?:D i like it complicated. baby,please drink more water?:)
im so stressed over my art i cant take it,i dont even know what am i doing anymre.it started with me and my bedroom,then soon it leads to drawing bedrooms,and nude female bodies.what the hell?im getting nowhere,i need t be inspired.somebody HELP.
oh great,soccer match today was not exactly a gloriousvictory.come on,they were like only secondary two?i was so shocked.te score was 4-1.stupid me,i ran out of te goal t wana ctach te ball,it slips off my direction.couldve been 4-0 or even 10-0.that was my initial thought when i realised my team was playing with small kids.chai chee doesnt have a good chinese player?yesterday all of them was malay.im not trying t be racist.but ..haha,my darling knows something.ohwells,let it pass.so much for being petrified.
at night i thought about fanny,just how am i going t stay at home and do nothing on a FRIDAY night.im missing you already sweetie.how? :(
i can feel jesus living in me. :) finnaly,i know you feel glad for me.me tho.
today morning i woke up at 10 am in te morning.got out of bed carefully becus my cousin was spread-eagled across te bed,flat on his chest,with his mouth wide open waiting for te flies t infest his mouth :D at first i thought he overdozed or something mishap,but i checked his pulse and found signs of life.i put a towel in my bathroom mirror before attending t my toilette.then dressed in my worst for breakfast. oh,did i mention before?i wear only black clothes as i am mourning for te world :) everyday. im sick of hearing about how handsome is Bae Yong Jun.Please,my darlings over his body.i cant take it. My cousin lost her sanity,she must be agonising over her decision:" riches,glamour and publicity with Bae,or poverty,intropspection and listening t poetry with her current boyfriend-not easy choice.ya,like as if Bae will fall for her.oh,keep dreaming yall?had a very great night at te stadium with all te churces friend and of course my sweetheart,it was amazing.something ive never seen before in my life.jesus is so wonderful,i can feel his holy spirit around me,protecting me and pulling me through all te bitchen situation i fall into.thankyou jesus.
im exhausted :( i want t sleep.