well,my folks were fighting over my issues;my education. before my dad cam eto singapore and my mum called on wednesday night to tell me that im going back with my dad,in a fit of anger i guess. i know my mum very well. shed prefer me to saty in sing,cus she say sing could give me a bright future and that i will never starve here. she is racist,not that bad. :/ my sis is the worst one. im not gonna get on my family issues here,im going to another. well,i alwas create irregular posts. actually,for this month and last,i have so much things to talk about. i was kinda fighting with depression the daybefore yest. i think alot,thats me. i couldnt get a sleep at least not a wink.its really depressing,my pimples are protruding now. all on my foreheads! argh! i needed reassurance from my smally all of a sudden,i know i alwas use all those cute little names for her,im not trying to act all so cute. its just... im used to it already. shes very influential :) anws,she went to LA on the 12 and promised to be back on the26th,shed better if not ill fly over to drag her back . baby:if you dont come back by 26th,no more ducks! i miss her alot. honestly,ive been trying t dream about her everyday but i cant just after she left the next day i dreamt of her three nights in a row,now i really miss her. well,right now im working at palais,its good there.it keeps me busy.i love to be busy especially when smally is out of station. it keeps me from whimpering. i hate it when our time dont meet,when im awake,shes sleeping and when she is im sleeping. cant even get to talk t her online. i wonder how long beach looks like. it must be beautiful.-sigh
