Not a bad collection of presents considering my uncles redundant. The Longman dictionary will come in handy for increasing my wordpower.
The best present is still the christmas card from smally :) the Ngs,my father's side of the family,reunited at 5 pm. so i got my cousins out of bed and then
retired myself to my bed.I stayed in my room and emerged in time for christmas dinner and was forced to engage the Ngs in conversation. They werent
interested in my conversation about arts and music,in fact they looked bored ans rather eat anyway.Just my luck to have philistines for relations.The meal
was quite nice but there was no witty repartee over the table,it feels like we're just having an ordinary dinner;not a single hilarious joke was told.
In fact i wish id my christmas dinner with just smally alone. I bet we'll ache from laughing and stomaching good food wouldnt be a chore.The Ngs dont approve
of alchohol(except my fifth uncle),so when me and my uncle looked at a bottle of spirits,they tightened their lips and sipped their punch.(yes,its possible
do both,seen it with my own eyes.)Its getting mentally tiring being around the Ngs.Like the good book says,suffer not the terrible monotonous family,for they
shall ruin the ears and mentality.
i just realise that between my dad and i,we both have really great hidden bondings..i grew up alone so astray but with a strong-willed character. i wasnt led astray,the only thing is that i dont have a straight mind. its okay,i dont say its not good and people should agree with me,cus i said it:) this one whole week,i just found out many things about my dad that i shouldve known but i never had the chance t know..or should i say,never want t care t know..his stay had made me think twice about the little hatred that i should have for them. yea i used t hate them so much when i was young,gullible. they cheated my feelings by sending me t sing without telling me,they did told me before that they were going t send me here for education,some of you may have heard of this story,im still gonna say it anw.i didt want to,but she ask my sister t lure me all the way t singapore t just 'visit' my grandmother and yes,the visit was realy long for me,twelve years.. some pity me like i dont have parents love,some envied me for being so independent at such a young age. what can i say?and why do i want t stay in indo when i can get t get good education here?cus i love my parents alot,in indo,i can get anything i want,love from my parents especially.my mum dropped me countless of times when i was still in her womb.she would have suffered miscarriage but no,i was strong enough. im a strong baby girl,they would have regretted if i werent born cus im so sweet and lovable-flutter eyelashes and also filial. thought i told myself i would grow up without them,id still love them after all. and i get t experience things that i never did here in singapore. ive tasted all the emotions that anyone could suffer,or enjoyed. okay,what the hell.. my dad,we both alwas look at the same thing when we walk in town and we jinxed sooo many times. hahah,its fun going out with dad actually,who says going out with your parents is an embarrassment? if only he reads my blog,im like professing my love for him. he is the greatest dad that only i can have. -smirks. when my baby comes back,ill tell her so many things that happened when she was away,i cant wait -wriggles.
daddy,mommy..eventhough i dont have a straight mind,i still love you two. :)
and daddy,stop pulling my ears! the irritating part abou them two is that, he and mum alwas bug me with these same question evryday..
mummy : ''when are you getting a boyfriend?''
(daddy ALWAS talks about my future business,if not,homosexuals issues.)
daddy: winda,you know when you start studying salon.....then when the business.....
(i walked away)(he always pull me back)
daddy: ehh,then you must be like daddy,i can cut so well....learn from....
(rolls eyes)(the whole day he talks t himself and answer himself)
me: TRUST ME OKAY?i know what t do dad..
daddy: huh! suo suo er yi..(in chinese)meaning say say only.
see! he alwas say so much and then when i agree with him,he will alwas say that same chinese sentence. and mommy,shes matchmaking me with this russian guy!O.o pleeeaase. firstly,just becus my sister dont want him doesnt mean he gaives up on her OR doesnt mean I would want a second hand stuff.okay,no..actually,im not even interested! my mom just loves t see me squirm.she laughs at me. >:(
well,my folks were fighting over my issues;my education. before my dad cam eto singapore and my mum called on wednesday night to tell me that im going back with my dad,in a fit of anger i guess. i know my mum very well. shed prefer me to saty in sing,cus she say sing could give me a bright future and that i will never starve here. she is racist,not that bad. :/ my sis is the worst one. im not gonna get on my family issues here,im going to another. well,i alwas create irregular posts. actually,for this month and last,i have so much things to talk about. i was kinda fighting with depression the daybefore yest. i think alot,thats me. i couldnt get a sleep at least not a wink.its really depressing,my pimples are protruding now. all on my foreheads! argh! i needed reassurance from my smally all of a sudden,i know i alwas use all those cute little names for her,im not trying to act all so cute. its just... im used to it already. shes very influential :) anws,she went to LA on the 12 and promised to be back on the26th,shed better if not ill fly over to drag her back . baby:if you dont come back by 26th,no more ducks! i miss her alot. honestly,ive been trying t dream about her everyday but i cant just after she left the next day i dreamt of her three nights in a row,now i really miss her. well,right now im working at palais,its good there.it keeps me busy.i love to be busy especially when smally is out of station. it keeps me from whimpering. i hate it when our time dont meet,when im awake,shes sleeping and when she is im sleeping. cant even get to talk t her online. i wonder how long beach looks like. it must be beautiful.-sigh