For you i will blog again,ill keep blogging. So this way,you will know whats going on with my life when im not around you :)
i dont know ,things have been going around crazily. Things that i should detach after a very long time,id detached it already. So let it pass. Wish t still stay cool with each other,but destiny made them choose this path i guess? So,i go with te wind,cut me some slack.
Funny what a wrecked week will do t a persons perspective. Getting bad grades are not going t bring me down,i know ive said this tho many times t myself but ill do as my expectation in my o levels. I couldnt stomach te glass of sprite id poured earlier (usually i cant live a day w/o it.)and had dumped it in te sink. I felt so monotony all of a sudden. In my mind it was almost empty but i know theres just one portion inside that will alwas be embedded ,thats my sweetheart and my future career. Alwas and alwas thinking of it. I want t be famous and rich rich rich! period.
to winda:
baby,
you know last night was so nice, i wish we can do that again. you just told me that you can't go overseas with me, and i'm kinda sad now. i know there's nothing i can do to change that fact. thursday won't be a good day for you, i know.. and how i wish i can be there with you on that day, especially.
recently it seems as if you seem sadder, and heavier. and somehow i kinda know why. i just want to tell you baby, that no matter what, we are one. we are already one and no one can change that. living together is a plus point which will complete us, but the truth is, even if we can't be together, we're still loving each other. distance can separate us physically, but never emotionally. please keep that in mind. i know our path is difficult and unaccepted, but what do i care ? we knew that right from the start, since the moment we chose to walk that path together. it's a path fraught with restrictions, danger and pain, but it's all worth it.. for you. for us.
every single day we spend together is a blessing, a miracle. and i want us to spend the remaining days available, however much that may be, together with happiness. i don't want you to be sad, or worry about the unseen future. for whatever is meant to happen will happen, with or without us worrying. i want to see you smile, i wanna hear you laugh and see you live your days happily, i want to know that i've succeeded in making you happy, because that is all that matters to me.
i really love you winda. you don't even know how much, and what i would give for you. you say that you cause me pain, that i don't deny. but beneath all the pain lies pure, unadulterated joy, bliss like i have never known before. i am so glad. the pain i bear is to remind me of the presence of the precious, precious bond i have with you, one that i will keep until my dying day.
do you remember, in one of your letters you said that the reason why it hurts so much for us to separate is because our souls are connected, always have been and always will. and that we've lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other.. and that we've spent every past life looking for each other. "not someone like you, but you, for our souls must always come together. " i think so too. that is why it feels so natural to be with you and to love you. and that is also the reason why our union, our bond, is the single most perfect thing in our worlds.
you're asleep now, probably already dreaming. i don't know when you will see this, but it doesn't matter. we both know that time does not matter anymore. even if you read this ten years from now, it'll still be the same. our hearts are still beating as one. our love transcends time and distance, we both know it. goodbye my love, i pray that you'll sleep well tonight so you'll be fresh for school tomorrow. till then, take care.
yours,
tiffany.