Do you ever wonder why things have to turn out the way they do? Life , i've learned , is never fair. But i know all these have to happen because its Lord's plan.I'm frightened and i feel helpess, and even though i'm trying, things continue to get harder and harder - for the both of us.And the more i try, the more hopeless things seem. So i gave up trying. And now, it's all gone. Perhaps long sleeping term would help me with my situation right now. It was a tragic ending.( i don't need your sympathy, you don't have to care about my issues anymore if deep down you don't feel like and you think its wrong.)Te double depression that i'm going through is making my life completely and utterly at loss. why must i always be te one who get hurt in the end. is it true i shouldn't put my heart, mindset and soul on something? why not. is it wrong being true to myself? History is repeating. And was the whole thing just a fragment of my imagination? what i've ssen in my love life had led me to question god's purpose. Maybe i'm going to stop blogging for now. And will get on it months later, or maybe never again. when i'm nice and sweet, i'm taken granted. when i am compliant and give in, i'm discounted.when i give up or give in, i'm taken advantage of. when i am a door mat, i get stepped on.when i am diffcult, i am taken into account. when i won't compromise, i'm respected.when i am demanding and angry, others defer to me. when i am most tough, others listen up. is this the way it must be?Must i become what i don't want. To get what i want, to have what i need to be?
