HAPPY LEGAL 18TH BIRTHDAY.
Finally its here .Now that youre legal,all drinks are on you! So,i hoped you liked te shirt i specially designed for you.(thanks stephen tho.)I know there aint no party nor any nice plannings.but i hope te simple hangout was great enough for you. i know there aint no cake,its alright ,we'll blow cake together on my birthday! :D i know im nice.
Anws,heres something for you ;
you told me i was good enough.
that i deserved a chance.
that i should have te courage t sing,to laugh ,to dance.
you told me not t care about what other people thought
cause youre my best friend.
And now i want t give you whatyou alwas gave t me
love,friendship,caring and most important,dignity but
how can i do this in ways that equal yours cause what i want t give you
cant be bought in stores,what i want t give you is a simple phrase.
it may not seem like very much but it is in many ways.
what i want t give you will never pay my due.
what i want t give you is a simple ,thank you..
brother,i hope youll be happy on this special day of yours and alwas.
Enjoy :)
well,very early t have a reunion dinner indeed,but my big family insist on having it today just becus someones leaving fr indonesia and wont be here on t enew years eve itself.So,i rejected all my hangouts,darn it. anw,i feel so fat now..all so bloated.Ate at pines club fr lunch,thn in te evening rushed over t my friends studio t meet up with this street designer.thou hes not that famous among te public but definately around his friends which i heard from my friend, im sure he will be well-recognised someday,we did what we're supposed t do.well,he didt exactly help me with everything.Merely te idea of te figurings,had it all done then i went back home t modify it again.Dinner(another reunion) was at home,te house almost broke into half,with those big people talking and laughing so loudly,and all te lil imps running around screaming like theyre mind had gone amok.I was very much annoyed with one of them,played with stitch and pulled him around by te hair.I was praying that by te end of te night ,stitchs will not be bald .I tried grabbing it from them but they cried and started hitting me.so i gave up,and watch em play wih it.Its so irritating,im beginning t loathe kids!!Okay,im such a bastard.I irritated someone really badly and i didt say sorry,that lead us both t stop talking t each other.Now i find it hard t apologise for my wrong doings,(of course if it aint serious it snatural if i blurt a sorry)id rather keep quiet than a word of sorry.Why,am i egoistic?ohmans,since when.iI thought i used t apologise alot last time.I feel crappy now,tomorrow is a long day.Im dragging myself t bed again. night .
Tiring day,i hardly can open my eyes now.Did class deco right after school,it wasnt that bad looking.Who cares!Ben and yingling came t school t join me fr lunch anws.
currently listeining t ghost of you -MCR
Now im wondering.Should i go t MOS this weekend?im indecisive.clubbing now struck me as a refuge or those who drank t escape their problems,people who were desperate fr te companionship of a stranger.te kind of atmosphere that promoted te notion that evryone there,whether with someone or not,was up fr grabs!At te end of te day,you gain nothing and te aftermath sucked.Aws dez ong sze rei !Lets have te enlightening ,wasting ourselves,in&exhaling session this saturday!
Ugh,and i seriously have no idea what t do with my hair anymore now.(i plan t grow it long,did i mention?But i doubt i can.)During te night,my dar brown hairs nice,cute and obedient,but in te day,it looked like 'under-siege' as what my ccousin so kindly used t put it.
Oh dammit im really tho tired t type/even think about anything annoying,im sleeping ,dragging myself t bed.goodnight
I want t go t newsroom!Im sure ingrid dez and all are having fun there now.Its so fun dressing as one of te seven sins. I want t dress as greed if i could go but,frget it ... :( i feel so sad all of a sudden.Ingrid!!I want t party with you tho!:((
Like finally te suns up ,ive been mising it since then.Yeni had left for batam this afternoon,going t jakarta tomorrow and will be back in sg next week :)
Was all ready t go t town t do some shopping spree when potato wanted t do some groceries shopping at parkway.I accompanied her and her sister.Went t OSIM after that ,sw this really interesting machine named i gallop,i rode on it and omg,i swear t goodness!Its for exercising thou,fr te tummy.Its so good :D I want one at home.
Went t play pool after ,potato was badly beaten by me.She needs t polish her skils!yes yes,pools are for those losers and people without life tend t play it *hint.
This is boring my life out,i need some entertainment!
i hope youll be better tomorow. :)
Went out with my favourite uncle,we had a great day which i would like t share :spent te day accompanying him.
(he drove around ,with an empty mind,no plans nothing,but we ended in our favourite owrkout place;orchird country club.)
me: so,this is where you want t go?And golfing is what you want t do this evening?
unc: not just that.theres alot of things t do.
me: ooohh!im thrilled!(sarcasm)
(we got out of te car,took our clubs and headed for te course)
unc: ha!dont think you can beat me in this game,im like tiger woods when it comes t stuff like this.
me: duh.If you lose,you wont be called Eddie anymore.and dinners on you .
unc: Youre on.And its alwas your uncle me whos alwas paying fr all te dinners we had before?
me: I wont show you any sympathy on te course.
(a couple minutes later,we reached te first hole.)
me : Age before beauty :)
(uncle feign a look of offense before putting te ball in place.)
unc: Watch and learn.
me: just get on with it.
I hate it whenever he says im lucky in this game.How come its alwas luck when i make it and skill when he does it?And he will alwas say
"because it is!Its a fact that you have t get it right! " ...whtevr .
So,as usual i gave in and he won te game .Well,i let him win.I hate it admit,but i wasnt really trying tonight. :D
Anws,i thought monday was a good start with a compliment about my hair.Yes,i was late for school,again.Te ironic part,when i got home,6th uncle called .He said te school called him,told him i was late for school,he had te chance t ask about te probation letter,i dont know what te fuck did te school brag t him,twisting words,making up stories.Fucking made him believe that im in te wrong.But te only problem i had with te fucking school last year was my hair.Alright,i'd kept it neat this year.I'd been good since i was given te final chance.And fuck that,they raked up all te past and bullshit t him,they must have mixed all te other probationers problem with mine..Hellos,i fucking didt rebel,taked back,fight,nor play truancy!He wont listen t my explanation,he said as a junior i just have t accept all te screwing sessions without rebuking.No explanation,cannot speak up for myself,no matter if im in t wrong or not.Im still supposed t admit that i am.wtf.Fucking unfair.
Sighs,who needs an o level cert anws?Jeez,make me look like some lowlife person,begging t stay in for another year.Oh please,if it wasnt for my folks.Broadrick can go kiss my natural born blast white ass.
You want me t shut up,fine you said so.Dnt go back on your word when you realise yourself speaking t an imaginary.Fucking harlots.
Today marked te first day of school again.I totally wasnt te least excited t go t te new school,it smelled so new and fresh and pleasant.No worries,i was a good girl.I combed my hair neatly today,so neat that i got commented by some:"winda!you look tho neat!omg,so weird!"
I was like wth,i didt want it this way either but what choice do i have?I dont mind being te miss neat here but not tho neat that everyone used te four letter words on me
i felt so square all of a sudden.Mwen scoffed at te sight of me,come on .Stop reminding me that i look horrible.I feel permanently disfigured right then.Oh ya! Ingrids my partner anws,hahs.We slept like slaughtered pigs during class.Orentation wa sfucking boring,my new form teachers nice thou but she looked likea baulked tigress :/ Her demands are obviously giving us te full-court press.Sighs.Okays,enough about school.
My muscles are aching,did alot of exercise yesterday at orchird.Wanted t pool but i forgot my id.Wth.So,i played tennis,squash,carried weights.(100 times per hand)And very soon ill have two hands te size of hulk.Go figure.So scary la.My torso and lower bodys aching tho. :( Ah,i just hate school.
tiring. boring. irritating.
Thug life,alright.Ive spent all day hauling craps.Now,i just want t get some sleep and be ready for tomorrow's tormentation.Ah,jerked. goodnight!